NO MENTAL ILLNESSES, EVEN
“DEPRESSION,”
WHILE AUTHORING 1000’s OF PUBLICATIONS
However, to date I can testify to being tired, stressed and feeling overworked after years of working in the ministry tediously as well with all the effects of that, even without worldly compensations – if not for Christ a mental breakdown would occur, or perhaps the equivalent to a mid-life crisis. So mostly a mental breakdown is bolster by Christ in me, as the scripture has said, ‘greater is he that is in me than he that is in the world.’ These can lead to depression, but I put depression in quotations above, for there’s no difference from clinical depression often made and in my case, the often feeling weary, tired and wounded is as the scripture has said, "Even the youths shall faint and be weary, and the young men shall utterly fall: But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength" (Isaiah 40:30-31); this the second option doctor tried to best diagnoses as the world knows it (or third option, there was a first to the first at CA that concurred to the latter of a sound mind). I might go further to self diagnose post-traumatic stress disorder, given growing in knowledge and awareness to the ‘beings’ amongst us the bible call angels, has opened my eyes and there is a certain trauma from that in itself, much more than opening of the eyes used to traumatize me. For instance, in the atmosphere around us are million of microscopic organism in the air, our eyes can’t see them and possibly fit so by the creator with a smaller iris than say of an owl (or bats and why possibly they don’t use their eyes but ears, yet have eyes, why, and they live in the dark where we a vision-less), but if our iris, black part, opens/widens we possibly would see several particles flying at us in the air – bacteria, pollen, dust and even several nano-particles. Likewise, not that angels as humans or others amongst aren’t real, right before us, to our very eyes, but the awareness of them is hidden, like the particles in the air. Now, if one suddenly see the particles in the air, immediately that give a maddening effect, like being bombarded with insects all over you biting, coming out of your nose, mouth, ears, etc. That effect in my case is lessens because of Christ in me and the bible tells me so, so I’m aware of it before seeing it. Yet, little by little open my eyes to it. Now, when that opening of the eyes is forced (e.g. ‘Tracy Madden’ subliminal, but even satan pressing down among associates) that can further erode the brain and cause madness, yet only Christ upholds me (John 14:27, 2 Tim 1:7). All this put together, even with Christ upholding, can cause a dilapidated state of mind, not madness but as Isaiah 40:30 alludes, wearied and stressed, fully as of mid 2009, which needs refreshing to and from above than press in ministry outreach as such, and not wanting to risk errors or “my good, evil spoken of” if not balanced. If you see me mad or further works contradict or not balanced, it probably is not me for John 14:27 and 2 Tim 1:7 holds true. And remember this from the letters “I’m Getting Ugly AND Finally Ugly – Oneil McQuick,” found at www.freewebtown.com/livefree
“at the moment and previously this year devils (angels), etc, have been trying to make me mad physically because 2 Tim 1:7 holds true, so while being invisible to the eye, they yank blood vessels (nerves, obeast wreath, etc) on my upper neck and other parts of the head and brain, which causes much pain and if diagnose would read brain tumors, cancer and other brain/mental diseases - succeeding in either my death or survival, saying see he was mad so his words void; not to mention another variable, the obeast wreath on my head, though stable now, if found out in examination can effect the latter of those two points, as cancerous like as it be. But survive, though...”
So, or the “though…” continues, if they or the obeast or any is successful in yanking a brain or head part, nerve, blood vessel, etc, then as the scripture has said, “without thy mind would I do nothing” (Philemon 1:14) or I wouldn’t be able to function literately (and as stated in my post-will paper, “Must Know ill Procedures,” in such certain stages, let the due process of death occur). As particles are in the air but naked to our eyes, yet touch us, possibly opening of the iris, and the eye still intact, we could see them. Likewise, angels are on a different dimension we can’t easily see or feel, however, they can project to let us feel them if not for the powers that be, and as such, can invisibly yet tangible yank a brain part, hard to explain, but like when Trinity in Matrix died and Neo (Keanu Reeves) translated his hand in her body and touched her heart on different levels and restarted it. However, more than likely if such brain impairment occurs in this dilapidated condition and also with the anomaly on it (obeast), then I would be out of that body and in heavenly paradise. So? My body might still be alive walking about and you think it is me, that is, automated by an obeast or spirit; I would opt to say this can only occur if the “powers” that be allowed it, but such has been talking place since creation and if that powers that be were around, would then say “who am I.” That is hard to grasp, especially in the case of an unknown organism (obeast) automating a spirit-less body or the evolved versions (spice), with a spirit, even the obeast undertaking such on its own – these are also some of the opening of the eyes or awareness of things about us, there but unknown and not necessarily sporting myself as deep and at best, as one person puts it, “ignorance [CAN] is bliss!” - Cipher (the subliminal reads decipher, in the red or blue pill, I choose the Jesus Pill)
EXAMPLE “EYE-OPENERS” THAT CAN LABEL ME MAD
That Cipher subliminal of the Matrix was possibly personally to me, really decipher between STEAK LIFE = satan-ea or UNDERGROUND FREEDOM IN RELATIVE POVERTY = Ra/fatta (Morpheus). The Agents, 3 for these 3 eye of God wrap of this system, so any choice, good or evil or indifferent is in them, so cornered at any rate and so all luggage really ‘yellowrize’ or soaked in evil, though Ra spout green and mike orange, all evil characterize yellow though these two not necessarily submit under the yellow tree satan and Ea belongs to, but like saying to Google a word, when you mean to use a search engine to search a term, Google is only one search engine, so yellow just a label for all evil and devil a word for a myriad of accusers and not just satan. Many scriptures allude to this leave-behind or matrix movie subliminal, can’t get in them but possibly one is 1 John 5:7-8 =
For there are three [WORD BULL, EA, AB] that bear record in heaven ... and these three are one [THE FIRST MADDENING, THIS IS THE SAME SERAPHIM WORKING EVIL WITH HIS EYES/WHEELS, WORD BULL SEEMS THE HEAD AND EA & AB EYES, ALL OF IT CORRUPT]. And there are three [GAB EYE OF GOD TREE, LIKEWISE RA, LIKEWISE MIKE] ... and these three agree in one [SECOND MADDENING, THEY ARE NOT THE SAME EVIL OR SUBMIT ONE TO ANOTHER, MORE THAN LIKELY RA & MIKE LATER KICK GAB FROM THE DRIVER'S SEAT, BUT THEY AGREE TOGETHER TO WORK THAT AGE OLD CONSPIRACY AGAINST GOD].
The Gab tree (with Pig and satan in it grasp) have the rich, hedonistic and outright sinners/rebels with an over wheelock too, they running from that and Ra opt to say he is good or perpetrate being against the former, grab some hopefuls or true poor rebels against that tyranny, not feeling such as the former, but with an under Wheelock. When I felt this press of choices, satan pressing on one side violently and I know Ra is evil, but press on the other side like a smooth operator for me to cover under him from satan, I resisting and praying, the Lord used this scripture from the not yet revealed Psalms encodings "he lieth in wait to catch the poor: he doth catch the poor, when he draweth him into his net" (Ps 10:9). So like the Morpheus figure, the Lord saying, be of courage they, though opposing are working the old "good cop, bad cop," one has to inadvertently choose to bunker under one of them, yellow or green and automatically all is under mike or orange due to the fat, though mostly for service personnel, all angels usually work somewhere and Ra tree and Gab tree has fat. Normally satan violently presses (and pig with a passive hedonistic or false help lure trying to use her to cut out the other end of the press Ra undertake), so when resisting that violence or hedonism Ra offers aid to the poor which comes with covering in his network voluntarily, like Morpheus pop up to a trapped Neo in his cubicle running from the agents - so either way one is trapped and become yellow luggage. I learnt this process while doing photoshop classes, in the properties you can make the edges strap-to-guide than fit it yourself, that is drawing a rectangle to 4.53 by 3.48, fixing an image to that precisely take manual magnification and this and that, while if the guides are on the platform outline to that specification, when you place the image on it and move it near it, it automatically strap to guide or that fixed dimension. This is the process of much mental illnesses in the world, a familiar spirit or spirit guide trying to merge with a human, when it resist, many things like death, losses, etc are used to force that individual to snap to that spirit guide. Why? It now becomes an outlet or source of resort from that pressure of life and without knowing, that evil you resisted you are now friends with, working with and in their web. And why I wrote against the Sixth Sense movie in my earlier expository, it is telling individuals to succumb to the spirits or snap to them when that pressure begins, than resist evil. Then there was a deluge of other snap-to-process I learnt, not necessarily to a guide or someone, which can be classified under the process of “mental illnesses processes,” not on the doctors book and when not knowing what to do to this abnormal or spiritual situation, Psychiatrists would advise like the Sixth Sense movie to accept that guide, when we are taught, “there shall not be found...that useth divination, or an observer of times, or an enchanter, or a witch, Or a charmer, or a consulter with familiar spirits, or a wizard, or a necromancer" (Due 18:10-11). So I can empathize with you angels of being cornered in this world by this “anywhere-you-back-me” or snap-to process, either place you’re in that conspiracies net, even so, as a thicker fabric to the spice-attacks, all three evil eyes of God agree in one. And so, not just as you seem to allude in your subliminal – the rogue wolverine of the X-men, that is, box immune by the 6 as to the 6 claws that protrude from his hands, 6 for the 60 and even worst its now 30. Wondering everywhere and anywhere, and as on the system the 6 or rings appear when angry or trapped. I was sent in red (Isaiah 63:1), thought such is now over, with being touched in all points as Jesus Process – even so, flight should have been 2007 or 27, left in the subliminal of Nelson Mandela 27 years in prison, as in it is done, “N-(end)-El-Son,” El for the Gab eye of God tree, but not necessarily his son or submitting under him, Ra and Mike are sons of that “kill-God-take-over-heaven” conspiracy, like Gab is a son or slave to it, all these receive that EA Judgment then and is drying up; don’t know what the Mandela was to say, “Man” I guess for box in red, don’t get the “dela.” And I don’t want to know, I appreciate all the jesters really, but don’t bombard me with it, weary now. Again, as with the red or blue pill, I choose the Jesus Pill!
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NOTE: Some movies intended for great evil were “underun” (via cunning works) by others with subliminal, allowed it but marked it for a time such as this that all these evils must desist, so some movies I expose I later use parts as a good analogy to some things, not that that movie is now good or Hollywood or movies in general. Best to desist, even with “underunnings” or even straight well intended subliminal – that expository was Bible and Technology Magazine volume 6 - http://www.mcquickenterprise.com/magazine/magazine.html OR http://www.lulu.com/godshop.
